It begins here: every time someone or something nudges me in the direction of a question like "So, what's your story about?" the whole thing just crumbles into a pile of something crumbly and not very story-like. I can't summarise the plot of this story in one sentence or one paragraph. I'd struggle to get the point across in five or six pages of rambling. I've been hanging onto the notion that all I'm trying to do is make the story slightly less crap, but I don't know how long that can last. I feel the need to have a solid, easily explained concept behind my story and I join my story in that pile of crumbly stuff when I'm reminded that I don't have one.
"So, what's your story about?"
Option 1: half an hour of rambling about heroes who are really working for bad guys, a woman who has no reason to be involved in the story at all but for some reason is the main character, timetabling problems for thousand-year-old trains, demons who aren't really demons and a whole lot more that just makes the poor questioner's eyes glaze over.
Option 2: "Um... What story?" *runs and hides*
While I'm writing I feel all right, because I can bury myself in details and enjoy the interactions between my favourite characters. When I step back and try to look at the overall concept, though, it just looks like that crumbly pile of stuff that doesn't look much like a story. It's just disconnected bits of I don't even know what.
Much like this blog post. I think I'll leave it there for now and go and wonder about my characters' motivations again.